.H.E.L.L.O.
Between the heaping piles of laundry I've been doing, the massive amounts of packing, and cleaning I have been trying to find time to catch up to all of my messages on dA. It shouldn't be too hard, I only have 235 devs to look at, and 75 messages to reply to YAY.

.L.E.A.V.I.N.G.
I leave tomorrow at 6am -_- bleh. Should be fun, back to Vegas...where the hell else would I be going?! In all honesty I am not looking forward to this trip, I kind of just want to be home, with friends, but nonetheless its all paid for and I will be back Saturday. So maybe I'll get some new pictures

.R.I.P.P.E.D.
Apparently someone liked my dev "Kitten" [link] so much they just kinda thought they could use it without asking. Not cool. [link] that is the photobucket account. Normally stuff like this doesn't bother me, but I have been seeing more and more of my art being used without permission. Just ask is all. So I would like to thank for taking the time out to notify me and give me all the proper links that I need to get it taken care of what a hero! There is a lot of peoples art on that photobucket account, lots I don't recongize so if you know any of them, let them know too!

.L.I.F.E.
As for "life" now. I don't know where the fuck my mind is. One minute I'm happy, the next I'm sad. I over worry, I over think. But then I calm down and melt it all away, till the next time my mind decides to be erratic. Drawing helps, but my mind is never fully settled. I need some good drugs...lol KIDDING!

.P.A.G.E.V.I.E.W.S.
I currently have 17,258 page views. I want to do a contest for 20,000 page views. So who ever can get a screen shot of my 20,000 I will draw whatever you want and you get a journal feature so keep an eye out.

.T.A.G.G.E.D.

15 completely random facts about yourself.

1.I can bend my pinkys over my "ring fingers" so that they touch the bottom knuckle...and this is comfortable for me.
2. If you took all the hair that I have grown out, cut and donated it would reach the floor twice over, and then some, and I am 5'7"
3. I graduated high school early, not because I wanted to, but because my parents wanted me to get an early start at college. I started college just months after my 17th birthday.
4. My t.v. in my room is ALWAYS on, and usually is on the Disney channel.
5. My boobs do not lay flat when I lay down, so most everyone thinks I have implants...I don't.
6. I am really not that affectionate, unless I am head over heels in love with you.
7. I have no jealous factor and it throws guys off, I could careless who the hell you are flirting with, unless your intentions are less than innocent and in that case I will drop you.
8. I do NOT like fast food, I would rather spend hours cooking a meal than eat a burger and fries.
9. I have had the same best friend for 4-5 years, I met her while working at Slaveway as a bagger. You'd think we have known one another since we were little, and I know my life would not be complete without her. I love my Jess.
10. On a daily basis I wear rings that are worth well over 6,000 and no none of them are engagement rings, but yes they were all given to me.
11. I eat whatever the hell I want, who the hell cares.
12. Every three weeks I change which side of the bed I sleep on, this week I am on the right. I infact move my bedside lamp to which ever side I sleep on as well...and I know thats weird.
13. I talk to my cat more than anyone else.
14. I think that growing up is over rated, but at times I act like I am about 40, mostly because I am pretty damn wise.
15. I talk to my cat more than anyone else.

-Clubs

Wow, in just a few days I went from zero messages to well over 300 and some and I feel so bad that I haven't had time to get back to everyone, so Thank you for the recent favs, watches, and support/encouragement. I have been gone for my birthday, spending time with my love and friends. I should have quite a bit of new work very soon though. thank you thank you thank you thank you!

-Clubs

I dunno inadequate? I feel like I am lacking something in my art...something just isn't there and I don't know what it is. Maybe I haven't settled into a style yet, maybe I just don't have the heart to do it anymore. :/ Its been about 5 years since I started teaching myself to draw (I have never taken a class on drawing) , I don't feel like I am at the point I should be after 5 years. I feel I should be much further along, and I have also been told that. I know they say you shouldn't let others tear you down, but I see so much bullsh** on dA and I get a lot of that "abuse" too. I mean what gives a 14 year old that sits around and draws stick figures all day the right to tell me anything about what I draw? I support having an opinion but I am also a firm believer in "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all". Maybe this "abuse" has been the cause of my recent art block, and that...isn't right or healthy. Everyone should have a creative outlet, don't try to take others away with rude or hateful comments. Maybe I should just give my loyal watchers my website and move on from dA. I love it here...I love my small family that I have, but I don't understand some ppl or policies here. In anycase, I really do love everyones new art! Sorry I haven't been around much to comment or fav it...I still have 300 devs to get through.

-Clubs

YAY! It's 2009! I am happy that 2008 is left in the past, for some reason the new year always feels like a fresh start for everything. I have been quite inactive here on DA for a few weeks. Everything was so busy. And I haven't drawn for myself in a really long time...so I am asking you all here, what should I draw next?! I have been unmotivated to do much of anything but I would really like to change that. Infact I have made that my new years resolution...to stay motivated in everything that I do! I need to. Anyway I hope that you all had a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. May this year be your best yet!

xxxox

-Clubs

I'd like to thank everyone for their support through this hard time with my mom, but I am saddened to say that My Mother has passed away. I really don't want to talk about it much and this journal won't be up for long, but I just wanted to say thank you.

-Clubs