=DisneyDreamers Held a storybook contest and these are the winners

1st place Traditional: ~ms-cold


Admins' Choices Traditional: *Opal-I


=La-Siren-of-Eire


1st Place Digital: ~anya1916


Admins' Choices Digital:
~andy-pants


~SmyrnaSketcher


Congrats to all the winners the books were awesome!

-Clubs

"I'd like to take back everything I said. Just leave me with my last regret." So I am having a rather major art block right now ugh. May has been the most terrible month for me this year, there has been so much going on in my life that its been hard to breathe. Steven and I broke up :/ he left me for his ex. Normally I can pick myself up, brush everything off and just walk away...I am having the hardest time doing it though. It has been a few days since we have talked, my choice, but it still burns, stings and hurts everytime I breath. He sits in the back of my head constantly and I can't seem to take it. It has had the most impact on my art block, I don't WANT to draw, I stashed all my art stuff in a box so I simply don't have to look at it. This is NOT me. This is NOT who I am, or who I want to be. I keep thinking its time to just grow up, shit happens and then I break down all over again. Whats a girl to do when she is forced to begin all over again? I guess I have decided I am not going to be dating for a while. I really don't want a rebound relationship, and I am terrified to put myself out there again. There are so many things I keep thinking about and its destroying me, physically and mentally. I'd like to apologize though, the tutorial is on hold till I can pick up my pencils again.

xoxo Stephie

-Clubs

I am the girl next door, I am there when needed and hidden when forgotten. I can take the role of being your best friend but it might not always be for the best. I am there when hugs, and laughter are needed to mend a broken heart. I am there when advice is needed to fix a crumbling relationship. I am there to be happy for you when you tell me "she is the one". I am there regaurdless how much it hurts for me to hear you talk about her being perfect, and lovely. I am there through it breaks my heart to see you with another. I stand across the street, gazing upon the cracks in the sidewalk wondering what the darkness inside would be like if it swallowed me whole, when you walk by holding her hand. I am there to just wave to as you two go off on your adventure. I am there hidden in the dark when she tells you she doesn't like me, and brought back out when she leaves and breaks your heart. I am there not judging you or hating you for your mistakes. I am there wasting my time for you to, maybe someday realize I was right there the whole time.

-Perpetually the girl next door.

-Clubs

So, who would like to see me do a tutorial? I get asked from time to time to do them but I haven't actually felt I have enough people asking to do one :shrugs: So should I, shouldn't I? That is the questions.

How about what should I draw next? I tend to draw a lot of people, but I have noticed I am fairly decent at other things, animals, cars...ect. I kinda wanna draw a really wicked pirate ship just a thought.

Side note, I am offically graduated from college! I am pretty proud.

So for me, summer is here, I need to relax and find a third job...I want to save a ton of money this year because I want to take a month off and travel somewhere far like Japan ^_^ Anyhow I am leaving now. I hope everyone is well.

xoxo

-Clubs

Sometimes you just feel like you need to say something. And its not to say something about anything really, just something. I know that probably doesn't make sense to anyone but in a weird way it makes perfect sense to me. I thought I should get my old journal out of the way, just because its from months ago, and its time to "update". Today has been weird, the past few weeks have been weird. I guess I have been reminiscing about the past and thinking about the future a lot. I keep wondering why I am the way I am now. I am not unhappy with who I am, I am exactly who I always wanted to be, but its pretty much a complete turn around of who I once was. I was never into drugs, I was never big on parties, but I had a tendency to live in a fantasy world where it was hard to seperate who I was, and who I wanted to be. I hurt people from my past with it even. I was going through old boxes about a month ago and cleaning out stuff I don't need or want anymore, when I came across a dusty old box all taped up. Obviously it had been years since the thing had even seen an ounce of sunlight, or been opened. It had been so many years my memory seemed to have erased what the box held. I threw it in a pile to the side to be opened later. I came across it just this last week again, somehow it managed to wonder up to my bedroom, so I decided to open it. Once I did the smell of the contents brought back every single memory of an old boyfriend and the stupid bad crap that I had put him through. Pictures, letters, emails, and small teddy bears coated in his cologne fell out. A care bear, a tigger, a picture of him and his best friend, and just a few random letters. I hadn't seen this stuff in years. I thought in all honesty I had lost it due to moving, or maybe I just wanted to lose it...the memory of it all. My stomach became tied with knots, I hadn't wanted to see this stuff again. A constant reminder of who I once was. A confused girl that hurt someone that was so amazingly wonderful to her at one point. I could never fathom the thought of ever putting someone through the bullshit I put him through. Its something I never talked about over the years, I guess I thought if I didn't talk about it I would forget, at least that is what I was hoping for. I still don't talk about it, and now that I think about it...I never told him I was sorry. Though I truely am. If I could go back and change it I would. It is the one thing in my life that I do regret. I don't regret meeting him, I don't regret loving him, I regret the way I was toward him. We stopped talking, best on both ends and just moved on with our lives forgetting the other. There are days when he crosses my mind and I miss his friendship and him making me laugh, or smile. But then I remember the past is the past and we'll never talk again. I never wanted to have a relationship end like that...where if you seen each other on the streets you'd just pass one another acting as if you never met. It makes me feel a little sad that we'd be like that, we could pass each other and never utter a word now. We haven't talked since around 2006 I believe. I have seen his myspace and I know he has seen mine, and I have to say that I am completely proud of everything he has done in his life in the past years. I kinda always knew he was destined for greatness and I am so happy that he is getting it. He deserves the world, and nothing less. I know he probably will never see this journal, but if he does...I'm sorry. I am sure you know who you are.

Okay okay...enough of that...I have some annoucements.
I am going to be traveling a lot again this summer. ^_^ In a few weeks after school lets out I'll be in going to see Steven for his birthday in Oklahoma (bleh, but its a Vacation). I'm flying there and we are driving back to Colorado.
In July I'll be in North Carolina visiting a few friends, then taking a road trip to Florida to go to disney world and beach.
I'm sure I'll be in Texas in August, always am.
September is Vegas!
I'll be taking a cruise in October to the Bahamas. Its a pre-cruise for the one I'll be going on in May 2010, thats when I am headed to Italy and Greece. ^_^
Then I guess the rest of 2009 isn't really planned. But thats enough traveling for me!

I hope everyone is well. I should have new art in a few days! xoxo

-Clubs